A New Year

My family does not celebrate the holidays so even though there have been tons of "Merry Christmas!" and "Happy New Year" 's on Twitter and Facebook, I can't say that I share their excitement. My friends and I also had a mutual agreement that we wouldn't get each other anything for Christmas this year so my winter break so far has been just that - break. (Yes, I am feeling super guilty for putting off my homework until the last minute but I really needed a break!) So as both my break and 2010 is coming to a close (sadly), I wonder what will happen to me in 2011. All I know is that a lot of things are going to change. I don't want to freak myself out and worry about events that have yet to happen so I'm trying not to think about it too much.

Looking back on 2010, the first thing that comes to mind does not involve my family, friends, school, or anything that has happened to me this past year. The first thing that comes to mind when I think of 2010 is the 10th anniversary of Bleach. It has been such an amazing year for the series - so many goodies / events went on in Japan in celebration of its 10th year. I hope 2011 is just as good for Bleach as this year was. Even though I live no where near Japan, it just brings a smile to my face when I read / hear of all the amazing stuff that was released in honor of the 10 years Bleach has been around. It's too bad that it'd cost a fortune for me to get my hands on some of these products but I did get one thing - I gave in and bought myself the Bleach 10th anniversary 2011 calendar! I proudly hung it on my wall and now that 2011 is here, I can "officially" use it.



Bleach began it serialization in Weekly Shonen Jump back in 2001 - 10 years ago. I actually did not begin the series until the summer of 2006 so I've only been a fan for four years. Even so, Bleach made these past four years of my life more bearable. I think I can safety say that in my group of friends, I'm the Bleach fanatic. Emotions run high and crazy in high school - I don't recall many great / fun experiences. During these low points and bad days, Bleach made me laugh and forget everything else. Even if this time can last as short as five minutes when I'm reading the new chapter every Wednesday, it still relieves enough stress for me to force myself out of bed the next morning to go to school.

Some people do think I'm strange because of my Bleach obsession but I guess that's just something they have to deal with .. and if they can't, it's their problem, not mine. I say this because I have found random people on You Tube as well as a community on bleachasylum.com that share the same interest. Reading what they have to say about the series and their thoughts remind me that I'm not odd or weird. I just happen to love something that not of people I know like.

But anyways, enough about Bleach (for now haha), I haven't talked about my New Years resolution yet! (Fireworks are going off in my neighborhood because it's exactly 12:00 AM as I'm typing this right now.) They say that today is the day to make a wish because it's a very special date (1/1/11), but I don't have any wishes nor any resolutions. This is mostly because I usually forget about them a week later. If I had to make a resolution though, I guess I'd tell myself to stop caring about what other people think. I've been trying to do so for a while now but unconsciously, in the back of mind, there is always that part of me that's scared of what other people will say about me. There's always that pressure and I'd like for that to go away. I know it won't disappear forever but I'm hoping that I don't experience it as frequently in these years to come. Well, it's getting late and I need to shower so I can go to bed (waking up early tomorrow to do some shopping! yay!). Hope 2011 is another amazing year for Bleach! <3

A Bleach Movie Night?!

The other day, I tweeted that it has been raining lately and if it rains tonight, I will treat myself to a Bleach movie night. Sure enough, it's still raining right now and I just got done watching movies 1 and 2 of Bleach. I planned to watch all 3 but considering how tired I am, I'm going to sleep instead. Of course I will be saving movie 3 for another day - I'm definitely rewatching this one because it's my absolute favorite!


It's been quite a while since I've seen these movies that I forgot how much I liked them. If it's one thing that Bleach animators do well, it's the movies. The animation, setting, and music are simply beautiful. Although some fans argue that the movie is not canon, it's still Bleach either way and I stick by it no matter what (and the 3rd and 4th movies are technically canon - the production for Fade to Black was overlooked by Kubo and he served as co-producer for Jigokuhen!)

Watching these movies definitely proved to be an enjoyable and relaxing experience. My life has recently been occupied with school - homework (and tons of projects), constant worries about my grades, conflicting emotions revolving around certain "friends", sleep deprivation etc etc. Believe it or not, I'm actually trying out this new thing where I try not to complain or worry too much. My old posts mostly consisted of me complaining about everything that's wrong with my life. I eventually got sick and tired of this so I deleted these old posts. Worrying about things only stresses me out even more so I try not to think so much. Instead, I'll try to do something that'll get my mind off of my school life. Usually I'd go shopping, watch movies, read books(NOT the ones I'm required to read for school of course), obsess over Bleach, or occupy myself withs something that'll relieve me of stress. Can I get through 6 more months of school while maintaining my sanity? Probably (I'm trying to be a bit more optimistic too ^^).

What's Yours?

every person should have
one thing that they're obsessed with,
be it music, a specific book,
a show, a movie, or even a Brand -
any materialistic object
that you've allowed yourself
to be spoiled with -
this one thing
that never fails to put
a smiLe on your face,
that cheers you up
no matter how pathetic you feel,
that makes all the bad things go away,
as it banishEs whatever terrible thoughts
you had in your head just a second ago.

no matter how rotten your day is,
no matter how unfair
and f-ed up your life is,
this is the one thing you can turn to,
the plAce where you hide in,
the feeling you want to keep,
and the memory you never want to forget.

the excitement when something new
Comes out and you're giddy with joy
as you start jumping around in your room
the jolt of energy you can't
hold in any longer,
the adrenaline rush that flows
throughout every inch of your body,
and the need to share
this uncontrollable Happiness
with those patient and caring
enough to actually listen to,
and not just hear, what you're telling them.

Yet To Do

10:18 pm on a monday night,
cold and Sitting here by myself,
i can feel the wind of an autumn night
Come in through my window.
on thanksgiving breAk,
i'm wondeRing what everybody Else is Doing.

As i'm sitting here typiNg,
i'm remindeD of my list of things to do,
the homeWork i've yet to get started on,
the room i've yet tO clean,
the books i've yet to Read,
the list of volumes i've yet to buy,
the studying i've yet to accomplish,
the notes i've yet to write,
applications i've yet to finish filling out,
peRsonal statements I've yet to rEvise,
and the number of Days i have left
before the 30th of november.

Kitty

the girl who everyone looks up to,
the one whom every boy has A crush on
aNd whom every gIrl wants to be;
the girl with the cat ears,
the one whoM no onE Could've hated,
not even me;

she's probably no different from us,
but she made things Look easy,
she made sitUations Bearable,
and tries to make life,
a little more exciting.

she is amazing,
the way she handles complicated matters
as if they were nothing,
as if they were only temporary.
her style is flawless, true to herself
as she strolls through life
unaffected by the opinion of others.
never even considering to fit in,
she stood out and shined.

quiet and friendly,
she got along with many,
and they, in turn, remained by her side.
a year was all it took
to see how a Person can handle so much
while still being loyal to heRself.
unawarE of her effect on otherS,
she continues to shine.
for those who couldn't see this potential,
well, they were just plain blind.
(or they're idiots) ;)

Four Years Of Reign

i'm mad at a million thIngs today
but one cause of my anger
steMs from a group of people.
the ones who run the school,
the oNes you see everywhere.
ignoring them fOr four years
is close to impossible.
geTting constanTly annoyed by them
is closer to the trutH,
more so than anything.

they signed up for it,
thEy should have known what they
were getting themselves into.
the rest of us shouldn't have tO change
for the sake of their convenience

just be quiet, please shut up,
not everyone kNows you
like you think they do.
continue to advocate what you want
but please put on a real show,
at Least make us want to go,
convince us there's a good reason to,
instead of just trYing to make yourselves look cute.

no matter which one of you it is,
you're all the same.
walking around in control
when all sOme people want to see
is how fast you can slip and fall.
meaniNgless efforts go to waste,
you think people look up to you,
no, that's not the case.
few potEntials just wanting to get noticed,
unspoken words say you don't deserve your place.